Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Baby of Mine

"Mary's Lullaby" by Crystal, family friend

This morning I literally woke up with this song in my mind. I could hear the singing in my head as I opened my eyes. I got dressed and when I walked out of the bedroom, it suddenly struck me what song it was and ugh...its not been a good morning. :'(

I think it was because I drove past the Temple last night and saw the Easter Pageant stage all set up. Who knows...maybe I had been singing it all last night, too, and didn't even realize it.

It also dawned on me that I will not be going back to the Easter Pageant for a very long time. I didn't really think about that when I chose this song for Gavin's funeral. I also felt a little bad when I realized that everyone else who attended the funeral will probably be reminded of it during the pageant now.


Alison said...

Dear Bethany

I am a mom who lost my son 2 months ago in the beginning of January. Monday (2 March) would have been his 4th birthday.

I am crying as I write here. I cry for you and Gavin, and for me and Daniel and for every other mom who knows how it feels to long for your child that will never come back.

I also cry because I don't feel so alone any more. You feel so much like I feel and your thoughts could have been my own.

Thank you for sharing your love and your loss.

I also started a blog, just after Daniel died - may it also one day help someone like you are helping me.


Melody B. said...

I love this song and thought it was fitting that you chose it for that occasion, with Crystal singing too. I'm sorry it reminds you of sadness.:(

TheMoncurs said...

It's ok to be reminded. It will be a little hard but I think it will also be sweet to go to the pageant and hear that song and think of Gavin and Christ. And I think it was a perfect choice for the funeral.